Dream, lost, and Passion

Hello visitors, glad to see you again. Thanks for visiting my blog by the way. A little different from another post cause in this time, I wanna share you my personal story. That’s what blog is for right?  J This may not as “wow” as yours, but this is so “wow” for me (if you know what I mean) LOL. Are you ready guys? Keep your eyes opened :p hhihi

Umm, well this is my first post in 2013 and also my second post since I’m be collegian B-) yeah collegian, a status that confiscates my time . To many assignment that must be done in specific deadline, a status that changes my life. My point of view of life!

May 2012, I started to connect my internet connection to see a miracle from Allah that might be put my name into one of the list. List of student that pass to the state-university in undangan way (?), you know it such a chance for student to be passed in their favorite university without test. It only selecting the semester report *back to the story* But there was such trouble shoot in i-net that officially made me so worried. I’m like “could you be a nice partner sincerely only in this time?” *kiss my laptop* but It still didn’t work. “Cmon darl, what’s wrong on you?” And I getting kesyeeeeellllll *eh I mean getting fed up. After that unexpected moment, I decided to go to the internet centre and tried to open the announcement there. With  Bismillah I entried my number and password. Guess what???? I Failed! Failed guys L My heart broke a little when I saw the “sorry” word there. Kill me please!!! Actually, I wanna cry so loud but I still aware and mature enough to not do it. I have to lost my dream to be nutritionist. For me, nutritionist is a suitable job for a woman. Why I said so? Beside we learn how to manage our consumption, we also learn how to be good future mother also. I mean, managing consumption is a main duty of mother right? Well Allah has something better for me J Lanjuuttt???

Show must go on right? I have to move on as fast as possible. I have to take another chance to be a collegian, that’s a dream most of graduated-student of high school. Let me try again. Then, I followed test of statistic school and medical school department of pharmacy. It seems that both of them is not my way. I getting depressed. I felt that I had gloomy future. Poor you sucii!!!

But I believe that there is a light in every shadow, there is a plan in every tomorrow and there is a joy in every sorrow. I still had last chance. SNMPTN tulis. Fight till die :9 I studied harder and keep focus on my main goal. I tried to avoid everything that could disturb my concentration. Everything! Included about love Anyway, did you ever feel hate and love someone in the same time? I ever *proudly answer* hha *forget it*

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What do you think about chemical engineering guys? Chemistry? Bomb? Physic? Difficult? You have some idea with me. But I just have one simple reason why I choosed chemical engineering in SNMPTN tulis, because I Love chemistry J whahaha. Someone ever asked me, why you don’t choosed FKIP chemistry? I just can say “to be a teacher is not my passion”. At the end, only me know what I really want to be. I ever imagine, what if I choosed Indonesian literature? I also love writing. I could write many things that I couldn’t say. I could work out by means of writing. But, everytime I asked my parent and my friends, most of them disagree if I choose Indonesian literature. They want me to think twice. Well yeah, for the second time I have to lost my dream. But wait, to be a good writer and good future mother we don’t have to learn it in college right? We can learn it by ourselves, by our experience especially.

June 2012. Finally the day comes. About 1 hour again I could see the announcement in internet. But there is such a little fear in me to open that. Oh god, I wish you hear me, hear my wish, hear my dream. 18.00 WIB. Jrenggggg, time’s up ci!! Stop galau-ing and start to entry your number and password. Bismillah. 

 

Alhamdulillah, I got it guys. And know, I’ve been finished 1 semester in chemical engineering of sriwijaya university. Wait my another story yaaa